I’ve kept an online diary of sorts since 2004-ish; I shut down my previous blog when my long-term relationship ended, but after a while I missed blogging. The point of starting ACCOOOHTREMENTS. was just to document ‘happy things’.
But life has been bloody tough recently and I’ve felt less than cheerful. Both my fella and I have been under the weather. We’re stressed, tired, our immune systems are suffering. Weekends and evenings have been spent with Netflix and food. Admittedly that doesn’t sound too bad but it just isn’t normal for us to spend all our free time in front of the TV.
Yesterday, I put on make up for the first time in nine days and wore a skirt that’s usually saved for ‘best’. We left the house and spent four hours getting some fresh air in East London, discovering a brilliant new-to-us vintage store and buying my favourite olives at Broadway Market. Damn did I feel ill afterwards but it blew away some cobwebs.
Today has been back to laziness (big achievement: organising my t-shirt drawer), but that’s ok. Allowing myself to take down time has given me new perspective: I still don’t know what I need to do to make myself happier but I know what’s making me unhappy and so what needs to change.
It’s easy to feel guilty for wanting what we want when there are terrible things going on in the world and I’m always reminding myself that things could be worse but that doesn’t mean they couldn’t be better either, does it?